Prey

I am laying low, observing.
I can sense their presence.
There are so many around me, but I am invisible to them.
I try to understand where each is going, but there are not
many clues.
I will try to move forward now.
I crawl for a short while.

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One of them notices me.
She is observing me.
We both know that whatever the distance,
If it was just me and her, I am as good as dead.

I am lucky that she cares so much for the competition.
If she would make a hasty move in my direction, I will be
noticed by all.
She does not want them to have what she does not.
She takes a small step.
While I survived many such encounters, The fear almost
paralyzes me.
I take a step backward.
Now she estimates it will take too long to catch me, and
she gives up.
She goes back to her hunt, and I will never see her again.

I feel relaxed now, too sure of myself.
I move fast, still close to the ground.
When I see her in front of me, it seems too late.
But she does not notice me at all.
We are so close, it is really strange she ignores me.

I can hear her breath.
I am so scared, I can not move for a long time.
It takes me a while to finally understand.
She does not care I am there, I am not worthy enough in her
eyes.
She will not bother to move even her little finger to catch
me.
I walk away, and she does not mind.

From there on I can move freely.
They all know now my flesh is too old, I will not be
bothered again.
While I am glad to be alive, it saddens me to remember my
youth.
I was fast then, I got away from them using my instincts.
The memories make me proud, and it is all I have left now.

Pet

I used to be so lonely living here by myself,
But now I have a pet to keep me company.
It feels so good to fondle her, just to share the touch
with another being.
Now there are sounds between these walls, and I don't feel
so dead.

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I enjoy taking care of her, being needed by her gives me
worth.
I tell myself I don't mind the trouble at all, one must
give to get back affection.
I have no self-respect, and I work so hard.
I wish I could be a pet, without a worry in the world.

I talk to her all the time, pretending she understands what
I say.
Every sound she makes I try to give meaning to, trying to
make sense of it.
I try to understand her thoughts as well, but it seems
hopeless.
Our minds are so different; I have no idea what it's like
to be her.

She is rubbing against me, and I pretend she loves me.
Is it really love? Or did nature teach her to act this way
so she can use me?
Can she even tell the difference? Or is that love to her?
I know it is impossible to know, I must concentrate on my
own feelings.

I would hate to lose her, so I try to train her to need
me.
Yet I know I can always be replaced.
Am I happier than I was in my loneliness?
I used to be afraid of being alone forever, now I am afraid
of being alone without her.
There is no way out, I will fear for as long as I live.

Mirrors

I don't think she realizes that we are lost for so long.
We just returned to a place in the maze that we have
already been to so many times.
Or maybe we didn't? It all seems the same after a while.
How I wish for that imaginary feeling that we have made
some progress.


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She trusts me to lead us, and I am ashamed to tell her how
I failed.
She is busy looking at the mirrors, adoring herself.
She will never get tired of it, looks is everything to
her.
At least it distracts her, and she does not pay attention
to our problems.

I promised her it would be fun.
Why wouldn't it be? As long as we are together, we should
be enjoying ourselves.
Yet it is not fun to do the same thing over and over
again.
Not when we each of us is actually alone-
I search for the correct path for us both, while she is
fixing her hair in so many ways.

I try not to look at all those mirrors surrounding us. I do
not like my reflection at all.
Yet it is hard to avoid them, as there is always one in
front of me wherever I turn.
Maybe if I were not so scared, and raised my eyes to look
with courage,
I would have been able to see the right direction for us to
walk in.
I know I should, but my heart fails me.

All I really need to do is tell her. I am aware of her
talents.
She can take us out of here so fast if only she knew I
cared.
Do I want to turn this "fun game" into a display of my need
for her?

I know that as time passes, that moment is getting closer,
And I will not really have a choice.
I will soon lose any chance for the freedom of fresh air-
It is the only place without a mirror in site.